8th of November
I stood on deck of a ship watching Helsinki in the most beautiful sunset I had seen in years. Or at least it felt so. Ship was going to leave in half an hour and before that I was supposed to meet my friend Antti. We had been best friends with him since I can remember and it was him who had persuaded me to get out of my one-room flat and spend some time with other people in real life for a change. Reason that made me agree was the way things had went lately. It had been a whole year since the last time I needed my anti-depressants and recovery from my mental illness had been going great.
The choice to leave felt good.
Clock was ticking and wind blew coldly. I nervously checked time from my cell phone. Ten minutes to go and still no sign of Antti. My pulse started to rise, as I still had quite hard time when it came to social interaction. I really didn't want to be alone on a ship without any friends. I took a deep breath an